Yesterday, I went off plan. Not even just kinda had a bad day, or had a minor bad day, I had a HUGE bad day. Actually, it wasn't "bad" at all, I just didn't care a hoot what I ate. Actually, that isn't true either - I cared but I allowed myself to eat what I wanted. Not in a "I already ate bad so I may as well eat whatever I want" but in a "ya know, go ahead and have a day off." And it was good, but I'm MORE happy to be getting back to my healthier way of eating, which is funny. Everything I ate, I was conscious of the calories, which is definitely a good thing. No mindless eating, I was aware of the calorie bank getting to overflowing. I haven't added up the points for yesterday, but I'll do that. It won't be pretty.
I did a little bit of exercise, I walked from about a mile home when I had hubby drop me off on our way back. This was post-Carl's Jr for dinner so I was really having a hard time moving my butt. It definitely makes a difference when you eat poorly.
Well, I'm off to the library, then Wal-Mart for a b-day present for a b-day party we are attending this afternoon. It's one of my 6-year old's classmates and at a park so we're all going and we'll have the other kids play in the park while my 6-year old attends the party. After that, I need to exercise, just not sure if it will be by way of walk, using the neglected machines in the garage or one of my exercise DVD's. I'm on Day 17 of my goal to exercise 100 days, so I want to keep it up!
Saturday, April 11, 2009
Friday, April 10, 2009
And so it goes...
Doing okay today, although not great. Yesterday was good for the most part, but had a low-fat cheese quesadilla and half a brownie while watching the Southland premier. I wasn't even THAT hungry but I started getting some serious cravings. At least it didn't get out of hand. When the brownie obviously wasn't satisfying anything, I stopped eating it halfway through. That's a triumph, right?
I've been really moody the last couple days and I can't decide if it's from having hubby home and the disturbances in the force that causes or if its PMS. Probably both actually. Hubby and I have kissed and made up, in a big way, but I still feel he's somewhat detached from the relationship or doesn't have the depths of feelings for me that I have for him. Hard to say if that's just a difference in personality or real or part of my own mental issues. The PMS is pretty real though and I'm not looking forward to tomorrow when it peaks.
Hubby is going to WA Tuesday and will be gone at least another week :(
No plans for Easter, except NOT to buy any candy. Actually, I don't think we could afford to buy any anyway. My 6 year old had an Easter party at school and is going to an Easter/Birthday party tomorrow, so I don't feel she's missing out on anything and my 13 year old has plans to spend Easter with her friend at their church. My 1 year old certainly doesn't know what's going on. So, Easter will be just a reg ol' family day in this house. May try to talk hubby into going for a hike.
That's about all that's happening here.
I've been really moody the last couple days and I can't decide if it's from having hubby home and the disturbances in the force that causes or if its PMS. Probably both actually. Hubby and I have kissed and made up, in a big way, but I still feel he's somewhat detached from the relationship or doesn't have the depths of feelings for me that I have for him. Hard to say if that's just a difference in personality or real or part of my own mental issues. The PMS is pretty real though and I'm not looking forward to tomorrow when it peaks.
Hubby is going to WA Tuesday and will be gone at least another week :(
No plans for Easter, except NOT to buy any candy. Actually, I don't think we could afford to buy any anyway. My 6 year old had an Easter party at school and is going to an Easter/Birthday party tomorrow, so I don't feel she's missing out on anything and my 13 year old has plans to spend Easter with her friend at their church. My 1 year old certainly doesn't know what's going on. So, Easter will be just a reg ol' family day in this house. May try to talk hubby into going for a hike.
That's about all that's happening here.
Thursday, April 9, 2009
Weigh-In
I knew today's weigh-in wasn't going to be good after the past week. I have been tracking my calories using my diet journal and the WW points, so I knew I ate an extra 2 days' worth of calories. And I had a lot of non or low-nutritional, high-fat foods or desserts. That said, here are my numbers:
Current Weight: 167.6
Weight Lost: 0
Weight Gained: +1.4
I could consider it a step back and be really upset, but I've decided to consider that although I had to work really hard to get to 166.2 last week, if I hadn't gotten that low my gain this week would have pur me a lot closer to back at 170. And I know I can lose the 1.4 again. I have to remember that ups and downs are part of the process and BE PATIENT.
The good thing is that I feel a lot stronger for all the working out I've been doing. And I've noticed that I have very little back pain these days. I'm doing good overall. This last week was just a normal hiccup in any weight loss journey.
Current Weight: 167.6
Weight Lost: 0
Weight Gained: +1.4
I could consider it a step back and be really upset, but I've decided to consider that although I had to work really hard to get to 166.2 last week, if I hadn't gotten that low my gain this week would have pur me a lot closer to back at 170. And I know I can lose the 1.4 again. I have to remember that ups and downs are part of the process and BE PATIENT.
The good thing is that I feel a lot stronger for all the working out I've been doing. And I've noticed that I have very little back pain these days. I'm doing good overall. This last week was just a normal hiccup in any weight loss journey.
Monday, April 6, 2009
BOUNCE
After a couple days of not exercising and then a complete breakdown in my diet yesterday and the day before, I turned things around today with jogging 20 minutes straight! I'm very pleased about myself. Once I was able to jog 15 minutes straight, but haven't been able to do that again. Today, I got on the treadmill and told myself I would do 20 minutes no matter what. It was so hard; I had a painful stitch the last 5 minutes and my legs were burning like crazy. I was dripping sweat and breathing like my lungs were going to callapse. But, I did it and I'm very happy with myself.
Today I've eaten:
1 cup coffee w/ 1% milk and 2 tsp sugar
1 cup strawberries
Lean Cuisine meal
roasted veggies and light sour cream
3 glasses of water so far
I will make a potato and low-fat cheese later tonight.
Hoping between today and whatever workout I do tomorrow, I can reverse the damage of the last few days and at least not have a gain for a week.
Today I've eaten:
1 cup coffee w/ 1% milk and 2 tsp sugar
1 cup strawberries
Lean Cuisine meal
roasted veggies and light sour cream
3 glasses of water so far
I will make a potato and low-fat cheese later tonight.
Hoping between today and whatever workout I do tomorrow, I can reverse the damage of the last few days and at least not have a gain for a week.
Hard Fall
I did not have a good weekend. It started with receiving our paychecks and learning that hubby's was really, really short. That just set me off on the wrong foot. From there, the baby kept me up most of Friday night and when he finally did go to sleep I couldn't because I was still freaking about money.
Saturday morning, got into a short fight with hubby. Tried to call back to apologize to make amends and he pretty much told me to take a long walk off a short plank. I tried called him again that night and he told me to read his email before hanging up on me. So, I read his email and he says he doesn't want to hear from me until I've sought medical treatment for my depression. Then he added not to try calling him or talking to him cuz he's trying to work. So, I haven't called him or tried to talk to him since Saturday night.
Needless to say, yesterday I pretty much hurled myself off the wagon. I ate when I didn't want to eat. I ate comfort food like mac & cheese and ice cream. I ate until I felt slightly ill and then I ate some more.
I didn't exercise. I didn't try to go for a walk or take the kids to the park or anything productive except some minor house cleaning. I read for most of the day. Then I took a few Simply Sleep and went to bed early.
This morning I feel like crap. I always feel tired and groggy after taking sleeping pills. I have no motivation to do anything productive. I know I gained from yesterday. I can't be bothered to get back into the game.
Simply said, I can't be bothered, with anything.
Saturday morning, got into a short fight with hubby. Tried to call back to apologize to make amends and he pretty much told me to take a long walk off a short plank. I tried called him again that night and he told me to read his email before hanging up on me. So, I read his email and he says he doesn't want to hear from me until I've sought medical treatment for my depression. Then he added not to try calling him or talking to him cuz he's trying to work. So, I haven't called him or tried to talk to him since Saturday night.
Needless to say, yesterday I pretty much hurled myself off the wagon. I ate when I didn't want to eat. I ate comfort food like mac & cheese and ice cream. I ate until I felt slightly ill and then I ate some more.
I didn't exercise. I didn't try to go for a walk or take the kids to the park or anything productive except some minor house cleaning. I read for most of the day. Then I took a few Simply Sleep and went to bed early.
This morning I feel like crap. I always feel tired and groggy after taking sleeping pills. I have no motivation to do anything productive. I know I gained from yesterday. I can't be bothered to get back into the game.
Simply said, I can't be bothered, with anything.
Thursday, April 2, 2009
Moving On
I made some new goals for myself, one of which is to exercise for 100 days consecutively (minus 5 as needed). I am on Day 10. Just 90 days to go. I figure meeting this goal will definitely cement the exercise habit. I am counting exercise as at the minimum a 20 minute walk. Most days I am still doing my exercise DVD's. Today I did Yoga Burn, which is like a combo yoga and aerobics. It is a killer, but kinda refreshing too.
We have decided to let the babysitter go since we're really struggling financially at the moment. We've not had her this week and I've managed to work enough each day that I only need to work 2 hours tomorrow to complete my hours for the week.
We also had to cancel my plans for spring break, which is the week after next. I was going to go visit my family for a few days but we just can't afford the fuel for me to get there and back, as well as missing a day or 2 of work. I'm really bummed about that because it means I'll have to wait until June to visit.
Other than all that, everything continues along pretty well. I was eating a packet of mini-donuts from the kids' school snacks and after two I decided I had better figure out how many points the package was. When I realized the entire packet of 4 was 7 points, I stopped at the 2 and ate the remaining 2 for b-fast instead. I was rather proud of my control. I've been doing pretty well staying pretty close to my points budget.
We have decided to let the babysitter go since we're really struggling financially at the moment. We've not had her this week and I've managed to work enough each day that I only need to work 2 hours tomorrow to complete my hours for the week.
We also had to cancel my plans for spring break, which is the week after next. I was going to go visit my family for a few days but we just can't afford the fuel for me to get there and back, as well as missing a day or 2 of work. I'm really bummed about that because it means I'll have to wait until June to visit.
Other than all that, everything continues along pretty well. I was eating a packet of mini-donuts from the kids' school snacks and after two I decided I had better figure out how many points the package was. When I realized the entire packet of 4 was 7 points, I stopped at the 2 and ate the remaining 2 for b-fast instead. I was rather proud of my control. I've been doing pretty well staying pretty close to my points budget.
Weigh-In
Last Weight: 167.8
Current Weight: 166.2
Weight Lost: -1.6
I'm very pleased with my numbers this morning. I have had a really good week overall. I've had a few slip-ups, but no major falling off the wagon, just minor stuff. Also, I've been super good about portion control, not eating late at night and exercising nearly every day. I only missed one day of exercise in the last 7 days.
I'm definitely feeling better than I did at the beginning of the week. I've got my energy back and feel much more positive about things. Hubby and I are finally really talking again and I'm looking forward to him coming home. Still another week to go, though.
The only fly in my ointment is that I'm finding it really difficult to sleep. I often have trouble sleeping when hubby first goes out of town, but I'm still tossing and turning a week later. When I finally do fall asleep, I'm not getting more than an hour or 2 of sleep before the baby wakes (he wakes AT LEAST once a night, if not twice) and I'm back to tossing and turning, trying to get back to sleep. This morning I woke up at 5:30 am, and could not go back to sleep even though I'd only slept a few hours. So, I'm resigned to feeling tired and grouchy today. I just hope it doesn't weaken my resolve with regard to my diet!
Current Weight: 166.2
Weight Lost: -1.6
I'm very pleased with my numbers this morning. I have had a really good week overall. I've had a few slip-ups, but no major falling off the wagon, just minor stuff. Also, I've been super good about portion control, not eating late at night and exercising nearly every day. I only missed one day of exercise in the last 7 days.
I'm definitely feeling better than I did at the beginning of the week. I've got my energy back and feel much more positive about things. Hubby and I are finally really talking again and I'm looking forward to him coming home. Still another week to go, though.
The only fly in my ointment is that I'm finding it really difficult to sleep. I often have trouble sleeping when hubby first goes out of town, but I'm still tossing and turning a week later. When I finally do fall asleep, I'm not getting more than an hour or 2 of sleep before the baby wakes (he wakes AT LEAST once a night, if not twice) and I'm back to tossing and turning, trying to get back to sleep. This morning I woke up at 5:30 am, and could not go back to sleep even though I'd only slept a few hours. So, I'm resigned to feeling tired and grouchy today. I just hope it doesn't weaken my resolve with regard to my diet!
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