So, I've been tracking my food intake using the WW formula and an old journal. I guess this is working for me because I've had a pretty steady decrease in my weight. Nothing to jump up and down and scream from the rafters about, but steady, steady, which is what I was looking for. I'm using my weekly allowance points like crazy, but I'm trying to make really smart choices for my food points, insofar as sticking to nutritious foods rather than just using up my points on any ol thing I want to eat.
Exercise-wise, I've been doing a dif DVD every day at noon-time. Today, it was Jillian's 30-
Day Shred. Ugh! That one's tough. And I'm still only on Level 1 (such a wimp!). Tomorrow is "Cardio Inferno" which kicks my butt, but is fun.
I have a new food addiction: baked potato (4 mins in micro) with a slice of low-fat cheese and seasoned salt. Its yummy! And only 4 points. And very filling. And quick, easy, cheap. What's not to love?? And supposedly potatoes are one of those super foods with more potassium than a banana.
I also figured out a quick, easy way to make quick-oats oatmeal. It works for me because I loathe overcooked oatmeal, I like it to be slightly chewy still. Anyway, it's 1/2 cup oats, 1/2 cup 1% milk and then micro for 1 min. Top with a lil honey and it's perfect. The perfect portion too.
And I made this super-burrito that I really liked: Cook 1 1/2 cups of fresh spinach in a spray of olive oil for 10 mins, add 1/4 cup low-fat cheese and 1 tsp salsa-ranch. Then put it all into a whole-wheat tortilla. Its super delish and really low cal.
Tomorrow is my weigh-in and I hope I get a good number!! Upping my water intake to help - I figure if nothing else I'll burn extra calories going to the bathroom :)
Friday, March 27, 2009
Still More Just Okay
Yesterday was another "okay" day. Today, I haven't eaten yet, which isn't a good thing. I am struggling with feeling depressed this week.
Firstly, I found out that hubby will be out of town until the 8th and he's already been gone nearly a week. When he left, we were still on shaky ground from all the BS that has been going on with the kids and money. I'm very happy for him to have work, but not that he is going to be gone so long. Our phone conversations are short and uncomfortable.
I also feel sorta abandoned when he's gone. Besides the babysitter, I don't know anyone where we live still. My family is 600 miles away. When something happens, I don't have someone to turn to, aside from my 23 year old babysitter.
For instance, the garage door isn't working and I don't know how to fix it. I managed to detach it from the motor so I could get it closed, but now anyone could walk up to it and open it and get into the garage. There's no lock on it because its supposed to be powered.
Then, last night I went to go to the store to get milk, and the battery was dead on my van because my daughter had left the light on inside when she'd been looking for a book the night before. So, I had to wait until this morning when the babysitter arrived to ask for a jump. I could have asked the neighbors, but I'm not on friendly terms with any of them. I think we're not accepted here because its an uppity neighborhood and we're "not from around here," have too many kids and our house seems chaotic. One neighbor is semi-friendly but the others "blanked" me when I tried waving and being neighborly when we first moved here.
So, I was able to get my van started with the babysitter's help, but she is going out of town for the rest of the week. So, not only will I have to try to work without anyone to watch the baby all day, but I really won't have any help for these kinds of problems after today.
I guess I just need to be a big girl and take care of things myself. I mean, other women must do it all the time, right? I don't need a man to help me fix my problems. Except that I much prefer it that way.
I'm still exercising everyday, but still feeling down and draggy.
Firstly, I found out that hubby will be out of town until the 8th and he's already been gone nearly a week. When he left, we were still on shaky ground from all the BS that has been going on with the kids and money. I'm very happy for him to have work, but not that he is going to be gone so long. Our phone conversations are short and uncomfortable.
I also feel sorta abandoned when he's gone. Besides the babysitter, I don't know anyone where we live still. My family is 600 miles away. When something happens, I don't have someone to turn to, aside from my 23 year old babysitter.
For instance, the garage door isn't working and I don't know how to fix it. I managed to detach it from the motor so I could get it closed, but now anyone could walk up to it and open it and get into the garage. There's no lock on it because its supposed to be powered.
Then, last night I went to go to the store to get milk, and the battery was dead on my van because my daughter had left the light on inside when she'd been looking for a book the night before. So, I had to wait until this morning when the babysitter arrived to ask for a jump. I could have asked the neighbors, but I'm not on friendly terms with any of them. I think we're not accepted here because its an uppity neighborhood and we're "not from around here," have too many kids and our house seems chaotic. One neighbor is semi-friendly but the others "blanked" me when I tried waving and being neighborly when we first moved here.
So, I was able to get my van started with the babysitter's help, but she is going out of town for the rest of the week. So, not only will I have to try to work without anyone to watch the baby all day, but I really won't have any help for these kinds of problems after today.
I guess I just need to be a big girl and take care of things myself. I mean, other women must do it all the time, right? I don't need a man to help me fix my problems. Except that I much prefer it that way.
I'm still exercising everyday, but still feeling down and draggy.
Feeling Blah
I don't know why, but I feel so blah and tired today. I barely got through one of my exercise DVDs and afterward I felt more like I had run a full marathon.
I found out hubby is going to be gone until 4/8! Not happy about that.
The weekend went okay; not great but not bad either. I had choco cake the kids made on Saturday and again on Sunday, but at least I stuck to one piece each day. I didn't exercise on Saturday at all, but I did an exercise DVD on Sunday. I haven't left the house since Saturday and should really get some fresh air - maybe that's why I'm feeling so blah?
Not much going on besides that; just been sitting around reading for the most part. Need to go to the store to get milk but I have no energy...
I found out hubby is going to be gone until 4/8! Not happy about that.
The weekend went okay; not great but not bad either. I had choco cake the kids made on Saturday and again on Sunday, but at least I stuck to one piece each day. I didn't exercise on Saturday at all, but I did an exercise DVD on Sunday. I haven't left the house since Saturday and should really get some fresh air - maybe that's why I'm feeling so blah?
Not much going on besides that; just been sitting around reading for the most part. Need to go to the store to get milk but I have no energy...
Day 4
I am on Day 4 of "good." Good being: exercising at least 30 mins, eating within my food budget and making smart food choices, staying in control, drinking water. Usually I only do 2 good days in a row and then 2 or 3 bad days. But, I am determined to break that cycle. I have had 3 good days in a row!
Yesterday went really, really well. I stayed on plan while at home and then, after work, I took the kids to a new park with a hiking trail and exercise structures that I had read about in the local paper. The hiking trail ended up being pretty short and hot, with no shade trees at all. The exercise structures were pretty cool though. We ended up walking and exercising for 40 mins. I then walked the kids to the playground, but it was small, not set up for smaller kids and overrun with older boys so we didn't stay long.
All afternoon I was thinking about a McDonald's cheeseburger. I know I can eat a small cheeseburger without breaking my food bank and I was really craving one. But, I wanted to go to Wal-Mart to get some school supplies and rather than a McDonald's, this Wal-Mart has a Subway restaurant. Thankfully!!! I ate a mini roast beef with no cheese instead. And ya know, it was actually filling! They're smaller than a 6-inch, if you haven't had one yet, but only 3 points. I was thinking, while I was eating it, that it was in no way going to satisfy me, but it actually did. We ate early, about 4pm, so I had some veggies and a WW ice cream bar later on. But, I didn't eat after 7:30 pm.
Today I am sore from the Cardio Max DVD and then the exercising we did yesterday. I think I'll just do an easy walk later. Tomorrow I want to do another DVD when my muscles aren't feeling so sore.
Yesterday went really, really well. I stayed on plan while at home and then, after work, I took the kids to a new park with a hiking trail and exercise structures that I had read about in the local paper. The hiking trail ended up being pretty short and hot, with no shade trees at all. The exercise structures were pretty cool though. We ended up walking and exercising for 40 mins. I then walked the kids to the playground, but it was small, not set up for smaller kids and overrun with older boys so we didn't stay long.
All afternoon I was thinking about a McDonald's cheeseburger. I know I can eat a small cheeseburger without breaking my food bank and I was really craving one. But, I wanted to go to Wal-Mart to get some school supplies and rather than a McDonald's, this Wal-Mart has a Subway restaurant. Thankfully!!! I ate a mini roast beef with no cheese instead. And ya know, it was actually filling! They're smaller than a 6-inch, if you haven't had one yet, but only 3 points. I was thinking, while I was eating it, that it was in no way going to satisfy me, but it actually did. We ate early, about 4pm, so I had some veggies and a WW ice cream bar later on. But, I didn't eat after 7:30 pm.
Today I am sore from the Cardio Max DVD and then the exercising we did yesterday. I think I'll just do an easy walk later. Tomorrow I want to do another DVD when my muscles aren't feeling so sore.
Into the Weekend
BTW, the new photo above is of the river trail I like to walk. Its not ALL of it that pretty, but its pretty darned nice. I am especially liking the warmer weather we've been having and have to take advantage of it before summer when it will be in the triple digits.
So, 2 good days in a row! Yesterday I only went 3 points into my weekly allowance, did NOT eat after 7pm and did the Cardio Max DVD. I was having trouble with the exercising, feeling really slow and clumsy, but I think that is because I had to take one of my migraine pills again earlier in the afternoon. I also danced the baby around the living room for a good 15 minutes last night and that was a workout in itself - he's getting heavy!
I'm really happy its Friday, but now that I'm at the point when I usually reverse my good behavior, I'm worried about my eating this weekend. I know I can find time to exercise much easier on the weekends, but I also know that I am thinking about food more when I'm not distracted by work. I have to come up with some solid plans on how to deal. I want to break the cycle of good, good, bad, bad, bad, good, good, bad, bad, bad...with regard to my eating. I have identified the problem, identified today would be the first day of the downward journey, and now have to not allow it to happen. Same as tomorrow and the next day.
So, plan is to keep my points in control, drink water, make myself wait 20 minutes when I want to eat something that is not on plan, break a sweat and keep writing everything I eat and do down.
So, 2 good days in a row! Yesterday I only went 3 points into my weekly allowance, did NOT eat after 7pm and did the Cardio Max DVD. I was having trouble with the exercising, feeling really slow and clumsy, but I think that is because I had to take one of my migraine pills again earlier in the afternoon. I also danced the baby around the living room for a good 15 minutes last night and that was a workout in itself - he's getting heavy!
I'm really happy its Friday, but now that I'm at the point when I usually reverse my good behavior, I'm worried about my eating this weekend. I know I can find time to exercise much easier on the weekends, but I also know that I am thinking about food more when I'm not distracted by work. I have to come up with some solid plans on how to deal. I want to break the cycle of good, good, bad, bad, bad, good, good, bad, bad, bad...with regard to my eating. I have identified the problem, identified today would be the first day of the downward journey, and now have to not allow it to happen. Same as tomorrow and the next day.
So, plan is to keep my points in control, drink water, make myself wait 20 minutes when I want to eat something that is not on plan, break a sweat and keep writing everything I eat and do down.
Thursday, March 26, 2009
Weigh-In
My official numbers today:
Weight: 167.8
Lost: 0.8
Still a ways to go and not very fast, but I'm mostly satisfied with my progress this week. If not for my binge the other night, I think I would have lost more, but since its all part of the process I need to focus on what I have accomplished rather than on my trips and falls.
Hubby is in Wisconsin for a couple days and I had the weirdest dream this morning that I had an affair while he was gone and then his truck was stolen from the parking lot of the motel where I had my affair. Weird!! And so not ever gonna happen. I wonder what my dream was trying to tell me?
My only goals today are to stick to my numbers, drink lots of water and break a sweat, even if just for 5 minutes.
Weight: 167.8
Lost: 0.8
Still a ways to go and not very fast, but I'm mostly satisfied with my progress this week. If not for my binge the other night, I think I would have lost more, but since its all part of the process I need to focus on what I have accomplished rather than on my trips and falls.
Hubby is in Wisconsin for a couple days and I had the weirdest dream this morning that I had an affair while he was gone and then his truck was stolen from the parking lot of the motel where I had my affair. Weird!! And so not ever gonna happen. I wonder what my dream was trying to tell me?
My only goals today are to stick to my numbers, drink lots of water and break a sweat, even if just for 5 minutes.
Wednesday, March 25, 2009
Stress & Self-Sabotage
It has been very stressful the last couple weeks. Between having to take my son to his grandma, my daughter having problems in school, my husband only working part time and us struggling financially, hubby and I fighting because of the stress...it's gotten to the point where I don't want to get out of bed in the morning. And now, when exercise is especially needed as a de-stressor, I am having a hard time finding the motivation. I still haven't been to the gym. Yesterday, I didn't work out at all and today I finally forced myself to take a 20 minute walk around my neighborhood. I felt a little better after that, at least. But, where has all my motivation gone to get to the gym or use the home equipment to really bash out a good workout? I have nearly zero energy. I'm barely keeping the house tidy and for the last two nights I've had everyone fend for themselves for dinner.
Last night was a low point for me. Yesterday morning I woke and jumped on the scale, as is my wont, and it read nearly 2 pounds down from my last official weigh-in. It was the lowest number I've had in a long time and I was very excited. I did well all day and then last night I had the munchies and decided to make a little popcorn. Only, I was heavy-handed with the pouring and buttering. I ended up with a huge bowl of too-buttery, overly salted popcorn. About a quarter way through, I was full. I kept eating. And eating. And eating. Until it was gone. I was so full it was painful. I couldn't go to bed because my stomach hurt that I couldn't lay down. It was pathetic and stupid and exactly the behavior that got me to be morbidly obese.
Today was equally stressful, but I refused to allow myself to fall apart with my food choices again. In fact, I made very good choices. This morning, I forced myself to start the day with some oatmeal and a glass of ice water. For lunch, carrots and broccoli and more ice water. Just before dinner, hubby asked me to go with him to get a prescription filled. Well, he ended up having a problem getting it filled, went to his doctor's office and waited OVER AN HOUR to get it fixed. We couldn't leave it because he's flying out to Wisconsin in the morning. I was SO hungry by the time we could leave I could have eaten anything, at all. At the pharmacy, hubby offered to get me a snack. I said no, I'd wait. I wanted a snack SO BAD, but I resisted. We had to wait 15 minutes for the prescription. The entire time we were waiting, I was trying to decide what to have for dinner. Guess what was across the street, filling our van with great food smells? Carl's Jr! I had just read today how Carl's Jr. is the absolute worst fast-food place to eat at. I was salivating and hubby was saying we could eat wherever I wanted cuz he felt bad for keeping me at the doctor's office.
I told him "go home." We got home and I heated up some light Progresso soup for 2 points for the entire can. The first bite was heaven. I could taste every spice and herb, every piece of vegetable. It was the best soup ever. I'm SO glad I chose to come home and eat soup.
Now, whatever the scales says tomorrow for my official weigh-in, I know that tonight I triumphed with my food choices and that is really what this is about.
Last night was a low point for me. Yesterday morning I woke and jumped on the scale, as is my wont, and it read nearly 2 pounds down from my last official weigh-in. It was the lowest number I've had in a long time and I was very excited. I did well all day and then last night I had the munchies and decided to make a little popcorn. Only, I was heavy-handed with the pouring and buttering. I ended up with a huge bowl of too-buttery, overly salted popcorn. About a quarter way through, I was full. I kept eating. And eating. And eating. Until it was gone. I was so full it was painful. I couldn't go to bed because my stomach hurt that I couldn't lay down. It was pathetic and stupid and exactly the behavior that got me to be morbidly obese.
Today was equally stressful, but I refused to allow myself to fall apart with my food choices again. In fact, I made very good choices. This morning, I forced myself to start the day with some oatmeal and a glass of ice water. For lunch, carrots and broccoli and more ice water. Just before dinner, hubby asked me to go with him to get a prescription filled. Well, he ended up having a problem getting it filled, went to his doctor's office and waited OVER AN HOUR to get it fixed. We couldn't leave it because he's flying out to Wisconsin in the morning. I was SO hungry by the time we could leave I could have eaten anything, at all. At the pharmacy, hubby offered to get me a snack. I said no, I'd wait. I wanted a snack SO BAD, but I resisted. We had to wait 15 minutes for the prescription. The entire time we were waiting, I was trying to decide what to have for dinner. Guess what was across the street, filling our van with great food smells? Carl's Jr! I had just read today how Carl's Jr. is the absolute worst fast-food place to eat at. I was salivating and hubby was saying we could eat wherever I wanted cuz he felt bad for keeping me at the doctor's office.
I told him "go home." We got home and I heated up some light Progresso soup for 2 points for the entire can. The first bite was heaven. I could taste every spice and herb, every piece of vegetable. It was the best soup ever. I'm SO glad I chose to come home and eat soup.
Now, whatever the scales says tomorrow for my official weigh-in, I know that tonight I triumphed with my food choices and that is really what this is about.
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