All I can say about my weight loss is: RELIEF! There was a day since my last weigh-in when I was back up to 163 thanks to really bad eating, half-hearted workouts and late-night snacking. The last two days have been better. Actually, that's not even entirely true. But, yesterday I wanted McDonald's and I made a deal with myself that if I did a good workout AND didn't eat AT ALL after the McDonald's, then I could have a Big Mac Meal. I ended up giving half the fries and the soda away, but ate the entire burger (minus one hamburger patty because I only like one) and did not eat again the rest of the night, no matter how hungry I got. Actually, by the time I went to bed I wasn't all that hungry even though it'd been six hours since the burger, but I woke up with the baby at 2:30 and couldn't go back to sleep cuz I was starving. I knew I was suffering from a sugar low after the spike after eating so much refined carbs, but I still refused to eat. Is that crazy? Kinda, I'll admit. It wasn't just because of my weigh-in that I wanted to stick to my self-dictate to not eat again that night if I ate McDonald's, but I really wanted to be able to eat my taboo meal without a lot of guilt and angst. And because I did so well the rest of the night, I didn't have any guilt or angst about it, so it worked. Writing it all out now I can't help but think that I've crossed the sanity line, but whatev.
I'm a late-bloomer with technology and have only just "discovered" podcasts. This stuff is great to work out with! Or to avoid working! I'm listening to Jillian Michael's podcast today, which is both interesting and annoying. I hate her voice, btw. I don't hate her, but I don't like her voice - way too nasally and annoying. And she goes on and on and on about the same thing. But, I have already "learned" some interesting stuff so I'm sticking with it for the time being. I have other podcasts to explore that I downloaded, which I'll listen to on the neverending drive back to WA tomorrow. Lots of diet and fitness blogs out there. I feel like a grownup!