I haven't been on form for a couple weeks now. I have an occasional good day and but overall I'm not doing so well. I'm still eating a lot more veggies and fruit than I used to, but I'm not tracking my food intake and I know I'm going over on a lot of days. I've been slowly gaining and then losing the same couple pounds for the last 2 weeks. I'm back up 1 1/2 pounds from several weeks ago. I didn't exercise at all this weekend, although I justified that with the fact that I was so busy. Saturday we were busy until I went to bed at 10:30 pm and it was an active busy day, so I don't feel bad about not exercising that day. But, Sunday I was just lazy. In fact, I felt truly lethargic. I don't know what was wrong with me. I just sat around and watched movies except for some shopping. I made a half-hearted attempt to find some better-fitting pants, but when all 4 I tried on were too small, I gave up and left the store. I couldn't stop eating yesterday. I ate good foods and bad foods - from early morning until late at night. I probably consumed 3000 calories yesterday - a lot of it was fruits and veggies, but I had a lot of bad stuff too. And I ate full-fat ranch with my veggies. I just didn't care - or I did, but I told myself I didn't.
I'm just wondering where my motivation has gone. Some days I can kinda recapture my motivation and really make the effort toward losing weight but too many days I just can't be bothered. I am no longer automatically turning to water or diet soda. I'm not automatically saying no to foods that I know are high-fat or calorie.
Today was the first weekday that I woke up and decided immediately not to do my mid-day workout. I didn't even try to argue myself into doing it.
I just feel done somehow and I'm not sure how to undone myself.